The Best Diaper Backpack

So I got a regular diaper bag before Jared was born and it was a gift from my mom and I loved it. It was HUGE. The only problem was that I either carried the bag or Jared, it was a struggle but the space on that thing was AMAZING.
I googled diaper backpack  and they were all ugly looking, I either didn't like the shape or the colors they had. Finally I found one on Amazon.
I actually added about 3, I did my research, took me about four days. I finally knew which one I wanted. I had found my perfect Diaper Backpack, but I didn't check out just yet. that took 3 days.
When I finally bought it it said it was going to take a WHOLE month to get to me because it was coming from china. Lucky it only took around two weeks. I saw the box that was delivered to my house. It was BIG! I didn't even go inside! I opened my package outside. I fell in love, it was big, black, wide with gold details. It was exactly as I had seen in on YouTube. I saw a review from Mother, She Spoke she had the brand Elvy City but they are identical, just different brands.

This diaper backpack fits so much, I can carry 10 diaper or more if I wanted, 3 bottles in the insulated bag or zippy cups, wipes, rash cream, extra clothes for Jared, formula, and 3 water bottles, plus my stuff like my camera, lipsticks, mirror, phone and charger. It is like Mary Poppins Bag!!

Front Side.

Gold Details. 

Front where the bottles or zippy cups go, that part is insulated.

The straps.

Back zipper in case you want to grab something that is at the bottom, this is very convenient.

Side pocket where I put my key and phone

The other side pocket for wipes.

The Ugly Truth About Formula

I recently discovered that the formula I feed my son contains genetically modified corn and soy. Most of the infant formula contain GMOs, even organic formula contains some GMO.
I sadly did not have enough milk and we had to give him formula after I was informed of some pills that helped increase my milk Jared was already use to the bottle, I did have a full week to breast feed him, I think he was being nice to me because after a week he no longer wanted to be breastfed, and honestly not being able to breastfeed my kid broke my heart, it made me feel horrible! And when women who were able to tell me "well you should have kept trying" I honestly want to give them a piece of my mind. Even when other people are able to feed my son I get a little hurt because it was suppose to be a thing that only I was suppose to do, and come to find that I'm feeding him corn syrup and sugar makes me feel even worse.

There are many organic formulas out there but after doing a lot of research and I mean a lot!
I found one that does not contain GMOs in some form and that is Baby's Only Organic they have different formulas like Lactorelief, dairy soy etc. The only down side to this formula is that it is not recommended for babies under 12 months because the DHA and ARA in the formula are water-extracted from organic egg yolks and infants should not be exposed to egg until 12 months. This formula does not contain Marteks hexane-extracted algal DHA and fungal ARA oils.


One thing I could do is get breast milk from a milk bank but that is more expensive.
Can you believe that there are only 23 milk banks in the United States that are part of the Human Milk Bank Association of North America -- none of which are in Arizona, meaning local hospitals may come up short.(12 news)

What They Don't Tell You About Having a Baby

While I was pregnant with Jared I would go on YouTube and watch Labor and Delivery videos to give me an idea of what was going to happen they definitely did not record or talk about everything that happened behind camera. Its not like a movie where the mom is pushing for 5 minutes and bam like magic the baby is born! Nope IT IS NOTHING LIKE THAT.

If you get a L&D like that I envy you! :)

1. Little food or no food at all
I was in labor for 18 hours. Water broke at 1:20 Am and we drove to the hospital. My last meal was at 11:00 PM. They had to induce me because I wasn't getting any contractions. Once the Pitocin got going and got the epidural it was bye bye food or any thought about eating. I didn't even get ice chips all they were giving me was water with ice, lots of ice. I felt like I could eat a horse. No really! I was starving. Once Jared was born I asked for a sandwich.

2. No going to the bathroom
Once the Epidural kicked in I couldn't feel my legs. Luckily they put in a catheter. YUP! You read that right! I had no idea they were going to do that! They put in  a flexible tube goes through the urethra into the bladder and with out you knowing your pee just comes right out! You don't even feel it with the epidural.

3. Pushing is hard
This I knew, I just didn't know how difficult it was going to be. Once they told me get ready to push I felt ready but I was no where near ready. You have to hold your breath and the nurse counts to 10 you push as hard as you can to get that tiny human out of you. It's really exhausting. I luckily pushed for 15 minutes. And that's because I was giving it all I had. They even had to give me the oxygen mask because I was turning purple from pushing.

4. You will probably tear down there
I knew that was going to happen, honestly I mean I was praying that it wouldn't but I knew.
Some might not, but maybe as the first baby I did because well its not flexible down there. It's nothing scary really the scary part is after. If you do tear your doctor will stitch you up your body will heal. I had a bad one and it hurt a lot.

5.The nurse will push on your uterus
My husbands cousin told me about this one. She did mention that it will hurt but that was painful!
They push on it to get the extra blood out so you don't clot or anything. After that the nurse will check on it all your time in the hospital. Be ware :)

6.Cramps & Bleeding
To be honest I didn't think that would happen. The cramps. I didn't think I would cramp the way I did. It wasn't nothing like period cramps but they were uncomfortable. The bleeding part is kind of a known fact. I personally did not bleed a lot but I did bleed for a long time. Of course mother nature gave me 9 months of no period but it gave me a month of it. When you're in the hospital your nurse will tell you to check for clots.You will be wearing a sexy mesh underwear and a giant maxi pad that is more of a diaper. Sound uncomfortable but you will be glad to have that! Make sure you stack up on that before you leave the hospital and ask for witch hazel pads and that magic spray for stitches and don't forget your magic squirt bottle. You will be glad to have all of that.

7.The first bowel movement is....
This is the nasty part, I feel like I have to warn you. The first bowel movement is horrible!
I had to go #2 at the hospital but I asked my nurse if I could because I had just got stitches. I was scared, I was scared that my stitches would rip but they told me it wouldn't happen as long as I didn't push, so I sat on the toilet and got too scared got up and went back to my bed. Once I got home and I could no longer hold it, I cried I honestly cried, It was terrible! I never wanted to do it again, but the stool softener helped, make sure you get a prescription for that.

        Having Jared was such a wonderful experience, at the end it is all worth it. I promise!

3 Months

It has been 3 months since Jared was born. They have been the best 3 months of my life!

He has grown so much, he smiles, laughs, he talks, he does a lot of things that shows me how much he is growing up. It kind of makes me sad because I know that at a certain age he is going to tell me that he hates me or that I am a mean mother, and all that nasty stuff teenagers say to their parents, but I know when he does its because I'm doing a good job as a mother. I never understood the unconditional love my mom has for me until know. She always told me "vas a ver cuando seas madre" (you'll see when you become a mother) I didn't know what she was talking about. I do know.

I will always be grateful that God gave me a child, all I ever wanted since I got married was a baby, took us two years and now I have MY FIRST BABY.

Jared started holding his bottle, he always stares at me when I feed him and that stare is deep, its like I've seen those eyes before and they were the one thing missing in my life. I don't know how to explain it. Jared is wearing size 6-12 months, he is a big boy. For his 2 month check up he weight 15 lbs 5oz and measured 25 inch. His diaper size is 3 so we are good on that. He has been drooling a lot, and his teeth are actually coming out, you can see them when he laughs. He loves when i say "ahh boo" he laughs so hard when I do it, he has the most beautiful laugh I've ever heard.

He also likes when I kiss his little feet, I think it tickles him because he laughs.

Another thing that makes him laugh is when he bounce him in our arms, he likes it more when Justin does it. Jared started sleeping in his crib which is a good thing, but it kind of makes me sad that he doesn't sleep with in the bed, so there is times were I pick him up and lay him next to me :)

He is sleeping through the night, he taught him self. 

He wakes up at 7 Am I change his diaper, feed him 5 oz than he likes to play for about two hours and he takes a 30-45 minute nap, after that he wakes up at 9 almost 10 and by then he is hungry so I make him 4 oz sometimes he doesn't finish all 4 and than another diaper change. Than Jared and I play for two hours and he takes a 20-30 minute nap wakes up at 11:30, we watch a little netflix for about 45 minutes than I put him down so he can do tummy time and we play some more,at 1pm he gets fuzzy so I change his diaper and feed him 4 oz and he falls asleep for four hours sometimes five and then its either bath time or leg day :) at 7-7:30 he gets another 4 Oz and falls asleep for the night.

That is what our day looks likes, in between naps I was his bottles, eat do laundry or just sit an relax, sometimes I nap with him.

First Time Mom

I always knew I could be a great mom! I obviously did not know what was expected of me.
The first few days of Jared's life was in the hospital because he was born with jaundice and his level of jaundice kept going up. The reason for that is because Jared and I have different blood type.
I felt guilty, I hated being the reason why my baby kept getting poked with needles! Jared did latch immediately but sadly my milk supply was very low. That broke me down! I couldn't do the most important thing for my son, which was feed him. I cried and cried because nothing was working for him! After the third day they told us we could leave, but we had a follow up with his pediatrician. I was excited to go home and sleep in my bed and not having nagging nurses make me feel like a crappy mother because I couldn't breastfeed my son. Seriously they should have been much more nicer with that! After we got home I tried to feed him and nothing was coming out, I took a really hot shower so my milk supply could increase and it didn't work. I pumped and wouldn't even get 1 oz. After a while we had to get him formula. I was so against it that every time I would give him a bottle I cried. I would hand him over to my mom and break down, it was literally hurting me so much that I couldn't breastfeed my son! Justin was so amazing with me, he would hug me and tell me that it was okay, even if he didn't know how I felt he made me feel better! He helped me get through that! I was in a dark place! I felt broken, I felt like I was useless because I couldn't do the one thing I was meant to do! It was such a horrible feeling! After a week of pumping I was starting to make 1 oz. That made me so happy! But that didn't last long. It stopped so I gave up. I was a failure. Than my husbands cousin Jessica told me about some pills that would help, and they really did help a lot! I was finally breastfeeding my son, it brought so much joy in my heart. We did that for maybe two weeks after that he decided he no longer wanted breast milk, but I was okay with that. I had my two weeks with him and it was better than nothing! Sometimes I still get a little depressed but I'm better at forgetting about it now.

Baby Jared

Jared was born on November 20th at 7:02 pm. Being in labor has to be one of the most incredible thing I could've of done.
Giving birth makes me feel like a super hero!
My water broke at 1:20, I woke up because I had to use the bathroom, I got out of bed took five steps and felt this liquid coming out, I knew exactly what it was. I was on the edge of the bed by Justin's feet and I was shaking him so he could wake up, took me a few tries. Once Justin woke up I told him "babe my water broke" he sat up real quick and asked "what?" so I had to tell him again and walked out of the room and went into the bathroom to pee. I also called my Dr left a VM and he called me back telling me to go to the hospital, while I was in the bathroom Justin walked in and asked if my water broke, I answered yes and that we needed to go to the Hospital asap. 

I also told him to inform my mom because I needed her to go with us to the hospital. My mom got ready to go with us, I had to change Justin got dressed, we got hospital bag and Jared's diaper bag, we left and on our way to the hospital I felt every emotion, scared, tired, excited, happy, nervous, mostly scared. I was scared of contraction and labor. Once we got to the hospital my mom and I went to labor and delivery while Justin parked the car. I got admitted and went to the back I got my bed and they took my vitals and put in an IV, Justin got there an we waited for the nurse to check if my water really did break. After two hours they said yes your water broke. They took me to my room and since I wasn't getting contraction they gave me some pitocin, after a few minutes I got contractions they weren't so bad which is why it took me hours to deliver baby. Every hour they came in to check on me and my contractions since they were not getting any worse by them self, they kept adding more pitocin as the hours went by I stared to feel really exhausted, I wanted to sleep but couldn't there was a lot going on in my room.... after a few hours my contractions started to get really bad, at first they were enough to handle but than I felt like my back was tearing apart!

 Justin called the nurse so I could get the epidural everyone who was in the room stepped out except my mom. Getting the epidural was freaking me out but it was not bad at all, they guy who did it was telling me how it was going to hurt and feel uncomfortable and what not but honestly I kind of liked the feeling. Once they were done I went back in bed, after five minutes I couldn't feel my legs which was great because my contractions got really bad and I was glad I couldn't feel them. 

They kept coming in to check if I had dilated and I stayed at 3cm till 5pm .I was 6cm  after 5pm. At 6:30pm Dr Medchil came to check and I was 10cm! I was excited to meet my baby! It took 15 minutes for Jared to be born. He was crying and I cried as soon as I saw him, I fell in love! It was such an incredible feeling I felt complete! Once they put him in my arm I told him "no llores mi nino" and he just stopped crying. The nurse took him to get measured and to weight him. Jared weight 7 lbs 13 oz and measured 19 inch! Once they were done and he was cleaned up I got to do just a few minutes of skin to skin. After they checked me all I wanted was to eat a sandwich. I asked the nurse if she could bring me one and she did! It was the most delicious sandwich I have ever had!